September 2018
September
2018
What a
busy month! We hit the 5-month anniversary a few days ago. Certainly, doesn’t get any easier. I wonder if she would be walking now? I think
she would be crawling. Back to work
keeps me busy for a couple of days and then the remaining week is taken up with
a few charity bits, housework and a day to spend with Johnny!
We also
have had a visit from the hospice nurses which was lovely. We could show them what we had been up to
over the last few months and book in a stay at the hospice to revisit, plus a remembering
day which we are very much looking forward to.
It is my main aim to keep talking about Elizabeth and keep her memory
alive.
Ella also
turned 9, I can’t believe where the time is going! I could tell she loved her family party, but I
also knew she was missing Elizabeth that day.
She never says much but you can tell it is hard, we feel it too and love
a family get together but there will always be someone missing now.
September
has also meant back to preschool and Johnny is struggling with separating from
me to go in. I never like to use the last year as an excuse, but I wonder what
is going on in his head. Does he wonder
if I will have to disappear somewhere while he is there and won’t be there when
he gets home? I am hoping the consistency of each week will help and he will
start to go in each morning happy.
I also
need to work on my memory. I know I forget things, I spend so much time
thinking about Elizabeth still need to make room for everything else! At least unlike August we have had no more
funerals and I have not been so unwell (August saw me very poorly with strep
A). Maybe this is our new normal …everything
is starting to settle.
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