October 2018
October 2018 This month has gone by so quickly. The 6-month anniversary was so difficult. I can’t understand why this one was any worse than the others. I suppose before if you kept busy you could almost trick yourself into thinking that she was in hospital and James was with her as we had done many times before. After 6 months the realisation sets in that you will not see her again and you begin to realise how much you really miss her and long to hold and cuddle her again. Every night I sit and look through the beautiful photos and videos we have of her. Even though we still laugh as a family we always have that feeling that something is missing. I find myself finding little things making me cry. I miss the point before bed where Elizabeth loved watching tractor videos on the television! I miss the morning when she would sit and play farms while we were getting ready for school. I miss going in to get her in the morning or from a nap. I miss seeing her in th